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Lesson 282 - Bhakti, Deep Meditation and on
Becoming the Mantra (Audio)
Date: Fri Apr 28, 2006 2:48 pm
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Q: As my desire to get closer to God has grown, the
intensity of my meditations has grown. The inner space in my head has grown
bigger, and there is more of a feeling of "becoming" the mantra. Is this
"becoming" real or is it an illusion?
A: Yes, our desire for spiritual progress (bhakti) has
a direct effect not only on our regularity of doing sitting practices, but
also on the results. If our desire is very intense, we may, in fact, do well
to "self-pace" our bhakti just as we would any other practice to avoid
excesses of energy flow in the nervous system, which can be uncomfortable
and counter-productive to our progress. If our path is unstable, we might
not be so eager to stay on it long term. What we'd like is good progress at
a smooth, safe speed. That is a path we can stay on for a long time, which
greatly enhances our ability to achieve maximum progress in this lifetime.
On "becoming the mantra" in deep meditation and whether
this is an illusion or not, some might argue that there is no "becoming,"
and that we are there already. However, while we'd all like to "Be here
now," the becoming-ness of it is impossible to avoid. It is a matter of
changing point of view as our nervous system progresses in its process of
purification as the vehicle of our inner awareness. If I am out here in ego
and go in on the mantra, I may appear to become the mantra as it and my
egoic sense dissolve into stillness, which is my self. If I am in there
already as resident inner silence, the witness, looking from the inside out,
then there is no becoming as the mantra makes the same journey. The process
is the same. Only the point of view is different. In the case of your
experience, you have seen your ego self dissolve to become the mantra
refining into expanding stillness, your unbounded blissful self. There's
nothing wrong with that experience, as long as it is only an observation of
scenery and not an imposition on the easy procedure of deep meditation
Of course, we cannot intellectually locate ourselves in
one point of view or the other -- not organically anyway. Our point of view
from ego or stillness is where it is depending on the condition of our
neurobiology, and we will describe the experience from that angle
accordingly. With practices, over time, the point of view gradually shifts
as our sense of self changes from external to internal. Then we can honestly
say, "Hey everyone, I'm really here now!"
In truth, we probably won't say much, and just go do
the dishes and take out the trash. Nothing changes, even as everything does.
We are becoming "That" even though we already are "That." I guess that is
why they call it "realization" ... realizing something that is already. It
is a becoming ... a journey from here to here...
The guru is in you.
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