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lmaher22
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 Posted - Jun 12 2011 : 5:39:14 PM
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I've found that if I try experimenting with different times or break routine or try to make it 'easier' for me, I can feel the whole thing slowly going down the cra-per. No cheatin the mind, eh? Man, you can lose this so easily and sometimes have to fight to keep it. I'm so new, that the littlest bit of negitive news on this way of living and my 'mind' starts scheming to dump it all! Like the one thought that sent me off to the casino or bar or some other type of escape. Or the one incident that made me drop out of a college (I've been to seven of them). I don't know if I'm a rebel, an abusive authority hater or just a nutjob! Only a stable mind from DM will tell me, or help me in the future. Too bad I'm 57 though, maybe it's too late?
Best to all.
Hang tight,
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kevincann
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Posted - Jun 12 2011 : 7:05:07 PM
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Originally posted by lmaher22
I've found that if I try experimenting with different times or break routine or try to make it 'easier' for me, I can feel the whole thing slowly going down the cra-per. No cheatin the mind, eh? Man, you can lose this so easily and sometimes have to fight to keep it. I'm so new, that the littlest bit of negitive news on this way of living and my 'mind' starts scheming to dump it all! Like the one thought that sent me off to the casino or bar or some other type of escape. Or the one incident that made me drop out of a college (I've been to seven of them). I don't know if I'm a rebel, an abusive authority hater or just a nutjob! Only a stable mind from DM will tell me, or help me in the future. Too bad I'm 57 though, maybe it's too late?
Best to all.
Hang tight,
L
This isn't a practice.. per se.. but if you just sit quiety with yourself without expectations..summon up the closest feeling to unconditional love of which you are capable.. and love yourself, your ego.. your hurting.. your restlessness.. with that unconditional love.. just do that sometimes, when you can't do your practice or you find that you have run off to one of your distractions. Just forgive yourself. Nobody is holding anything against you.. not your Higher Self. Not the One. Not anyone.
Once you can just sit quietly with yourself, without being all squirmy inside.. continue the AYP practices.. they will be more productive.
If you "fall down 1 million times", then get up 1 million times. Nobody is keeping score. Not even your Self.
It's never too late to become comfortable in your own skin. It could happen on your deathbed. Might as well get started being happy in the present moment... it's the only
moment you will ever have.
Love,
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lmaher22
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Posted - Jun 12 2011 : 9:03:40 PM
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| Thanks Kev, you always take the time. Good man. |
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