I've had a kriya practise for a number of years but then switched to AYP, and have been doing AYP meditation for several months but feel real resistance to doing it.... I like SB and other practises but only have a real dislike for DM. What is going on here? Will it pass and does this mean it is very important I do it
Hi Still, The resistance may be from the fact that your mind does not want to/afraid to let go.
I would suggest doing it for only as long as you can sit comfortably. So when you sit to meditate, do it for 5 - 10 min if that is all you feel comfortable doing. Don't make it a game for the mind and fight resistance... the mind loves such things.
The other thing I may suggest is to try the "SHREE OM SHREE OM I AM I AM NAMAH NAMAH" mantra. Take a look at this lesson http://www.aypsite.org/367.html When there is a longer mantra, one, the mind thinks there is more to do and is happy and two, the process of focusing reduces as we lose the mantra more often.