hiya all about 2 years ago after a death in the family i started to get an urge to read spiritual books find answers and try to undo a lot of the suffering i have had in life yeras of panic attacks depression so on. i learnt quite quickly about awareness after reading anthony de mellos book awareness i started to be more mindfull of what was going on inside the first symptoms i remmember getting were jerky movements and my body felt like it was moving on its own i found myself doing poses and i felt like i had no control but wierdly i wasnt scared there was sudden uncontrolled crying sometimes laughing but they felt like they were poring out of the heart also feelings of despair. these symptoms carried on for a while then died of it seems like every time they come back i seem to go deeper and lately ive had feelings of fear but a deep meaning of fear head pressure bottom of my back aching waves of anxiety for no reason and i feel sensitive to sound i keep feeling an energy which doesnt seem to be in the body. but i will say that now not like years ago i am aware of things happening and in honesty im not scared they just feel like part of the process im also not very good at explaining things so hope it makes sense.
Your experience does sound like kundalini. You'll find that many people here have some of the experiences you described (jerky movements, automatic poses, body moving on its own, etc.). So you're in good company here.
It's good that you're not afraid of what's happening. It took me some time to get used to these new experiences. There's really nothing to fear.
You mentioned in another thread that you'll start the I AM mantra meditation. That's a great way to stabilize and integrate the kundalini experience you're having. I hope you'll share your experiences with it!
its good to know others are going through this there were more symptoms that i put and they all seemed to coincide with the release of blockages and i made these symptoms worse by concentrating on the emotions and going deeply into them and concentrating on the chakras without really knowing what i was doing the one thing i have learned is to just let them pass without me panicking and not fighting the process
is this kundalini
Posted - May 09 2010 : 10:45:06 AM
