What "I" want and what is often is different and causes me inner tension and suffering. For a while now I realized that I'm having a hard time letting go of control. It is really hard to let "it" take over and accept "I" to sit back and relax. I feel like this is a fundamental obstacle on my journey since it directly blocks progress and any form of spiritual energy.
I've always been a lot in my mind and was educated with many beliefs on how things, others or I have to be. It feels very relieving to have come to a point where this understanding becomes present, yet I'm still learning to fully accept. From all the years of spiritual practice, I gained a lot of trust in "it" and from the inside feel like I want to let go. Still, my mind continues to create illusions and makes me suffer.
I see a paradox, which is that "I" want to discard the "I" itself. But if I cannot let go, who then can? When will the "I" finally give up?
Letting go of control
Posted - Jan 28 2023 : 3:48:10 PM
