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lalow33
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 Posted - May 12 2014 : 09:10:20 AM
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Hello Everyone,
I've noticed a pattern which I'm finding a little disturbing. In November, a young relative died in a violent way. There have been lots of emotions: sorrow, shame, guilt, blame, etc. In the past few months, I've seen my mind searching and attaching this incident to current upsets.
I've only seen the pattern the whole way through once. Once during and once after. I'm not sure how often it happens. This is not the way I want to remember my relative! It doesn't feel right, but I keep doing it. |
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Anima
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Posted - May 13 2014 : 07:07:58 AM
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Hi Lalow,
I know that I personally have a bit of an addiction to patterns. They will pass. Let them pass. Maybe you can offer gratitude in prayer and samyama?
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lalow33
USA
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Posted - May 13 2014 : 4:01:28 PM
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Thank you Anima. You are always so kind to reply to my posts.
I'm currently reading The Work again. I'm going through a sensitive phase, but I'm hoping a few minutes of light inquiry won't hurt me.
I guess I thought patterns would stop once they were seen, but I keep falling back asleep and doing the same thing. |
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Anima
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Posted - May 13 2014 : 8:33:43 PM
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I'm right there with you, lalow.
Let's keep the faith.
Lots of love |
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Bodhi Tree
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Posted - May 13 2014 : 8:53:35 PM
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I lost a relative recently too (she also died violently). Though I can't prove it, I know I have not really "lost" her. She's just gone from the physical form, but she's still here, somehow, in the Eternal Presence. While it may not be the same as her physical manifestation, it's the everlasting knowingness that prevails, so I cannot discount that.
Emotions, for me, are like colors. Colors of the palette--each with their distinct and meaningful role, depending on how they're blended. Shame, guilt, anger, blame...these are more of the raw, red, blackish variety. They have their place, and like all of my being, they are moving towards refinement, so I don't have to fight them. I just have to let them flow in a way that is advantageous to me and everyone around me. That is all.
I'm resigned to being human, for now. Maybe I'll become a little more superhuman, with time. I can take that trip. Not that it's even much of a choice--it's already happening. I guess the choosing is in what flavor of trip I want to have. Not too bad.
Your faith will make you whole, lalow33.
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lalow33
USA
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Posted - May 14 2014 : 09:34:59 AM
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Thank you both for your kindness and sharing. |
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Jack
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Will Power
Spain
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Posted - May 16 2014 : 1:41:51 PM
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Hi lalow, try to look into the emotions until they dissolve.
For this I also like the tonglen practice applied to yourself. Bring the emotions to the light of your heart with the inhale, dissolve them there, and exhale extending the light through your body. |
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