hiya, i've been away for a while but in the past ive been quite active on this forum talking about mental health and spirituality.
i'd just like to talk a little about some of my experiences when i was away.
Things had been going really well for me and i'd been working with the inner smile (mantak chia) and developed a hypnotism technique whereby i spoke to various aspects of my nervous system to counsel them and to reintegrate. i'd built up a nice golden ball of energy in my nervous system which had quite a high freqiuency and was growing. Then all of a sudden I was attacked by a very fierce satanist who spent the coming months chipping away at all the positive golden energy until i had nothing left but a tiny little voice.
It was only after i went up to Samye ling that i began to have some positive karmic movement in the direction of control and stability.
I had an interview with Lama Yeshe whose energy was strong enough to allow me to just cry and begin letting out all this pain.
After i shook his hand and left my friend a Buddhist nun came and asked me if i was ok as Lama Yeshe had been concerned. Little did i know that my mental health was going to dip further before it got better.
I had to go into a hospital for a period until it was stabilised. But at the same time it was like i was in retreat facing the worst my mind could offer.
At one point i myself or my spirit had completely disapeared and i was so exhausted that i used to say "iam" and then just retreat into that non manifest energy until it was safe to return.
At another point One of my gurus (dhyanyogi omdasji) was fully residing in my body and giving out blessings to staff and patients.
I also was in tantric union with a spiritual wife who had come to get me to a point of mental health, and on top of that i was in union with two others one feeding me one from her yoni and another was feeding from my lingam.
I remember a moment when the curse on me was at its peak i began to lose awareness and was sucked deep into a black void but i was encouraged to come out by my tantric wife.
She seems to have dissapeared for the moment although i pray she is still with me. My spirituality has calmed a lot now and my mental health is a lot better.
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Posted - Jan 08 2013 : 4:36:37 PM
