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Ananda
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 Posted - Feb 13 2009 : 03:19:55 AM
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I Live yet do not Live in Me
I live yet do not live in me,
am waiting as my life goes by,
and die because I do not die.
No longer do I live in me,
and without God I cannot live;
to him or me I cannot give
my self, so what can living be?
A thousand deaths my agony
waiting as my life goes by,
dying because I do not die.
This life I live alone I view
as robbery of life, and so
it is a constant death -- with no
way out until I live with you.
God, hear me, what I say is true:
I do not want this life of mine,
and die because I do not die.
Being so removed from you I say
what kind of life can I have here
but death so ugly and severe
and worse than any form of pain?
I pity me -- and yet my fate
is that I must keep up this lie,
and die because I do not die.
The fish taken out of the sea
is not without a consolation:
his dying is of brief duration
and ultimately brings relief.
Yet what convulsive death can be
as bad as my pathetic life?
The more I live the more I die.
When I begin to feel relief
on seeing you in the sacrament,
I sink in deeper discontent,
deprived of your sweet company.
Now everything compels my grief:
I want -- yet can't -- see you nearby,
and die because I do not die.
Although I find my pleasure, Sir,
in hope of someday seeing you,
I see that I can lose you too,
which makes my pain doubly severe,
and so I live in darkest fear,
and hope, wait as life goes by,
dying because I do not die.
Deliver me from death, my God,
and give me life; now you have wound
a rope about me; harshly bound
I ask you to release the cord.
See how I die to see you, Lord,
and I am shattered where I lie,
dying because I do not die.
My death will trigger tears in me,
and I shall mourn my life: a day
annihilated by the way
I fail and sin relentlessly.
O Father God, when will it be
that I can say without a lie:
I live because I do not die?
Translated by Willis Barnstone
- St John of the Cross |
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Katrine
Norway
1813 Posts |
Posted - Feb 13 2009 : 05:05:59 AM
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Thank you, Ananda 
What I have found from St John of the Cross......and the dark night of the soul.....has been a great comfort...(and have only read a fraction of what he has written)
It is such a blessing, that those who tread the pathless path before us......continuously give us the gift of their openness.....and therefore their presence....
"And die because I do not die".......such a beautiful lament, isn't it.....
and the distance between this and the following:
"I live because I do not die"........
is just a thought......
"When will it be".......is always suffering.......while
NOW is always Life
Deeper and deeper into the death of becoming.....the explosion of all that was......
is unbroken Love
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Ananda
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Katrine
Norway
1813 Posts |
Posted - Feb 14 2009 : 1:43:55 PM
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Hi Ananda
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you might know it or not, but we have lots and lots of similaritiries in our opening and spiritual evolution me and you except that i am still far behind you but it seems i am going on the same way and learning a lot from your experiences.
You are very sweet and it is very joyful to know that we learn from each other.
There is no such thing as a consistant "far behind"......or "ahead of".......we are what we are at all times......warts and all :-)......I am where I am.....and so are you......perfectly harmonized within that from which all this arises
Bless you, Ananda
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