Last night I dreamed I was taking flight lessons with Yogani and my Franciscan Women Mystics prof as my instructors. It was time for my backward roll lesson and I was scared. I was driving to the airpark debating in my mind between going through with my first ever backward roll or quitting lessons entirely. I played the backward roll over and over again in my mind: accelerate, pull back the steering wheel, keep accelerating until you are upright again.
I awoke with a strong feeling of fear all through my body and it was a great! Laying in bed awake, I kept playing with the back roll fantasy and enjoying the fear.
Fear is the name we give to very specific psychological and physiological reactions to stimuli. The adrenaline rush and the feeling of relief afterwards, the satisfaction of having "worked through" the fear, can be addicting.
Deep meditation has changed my perception of reality so dramatically that I constantly battle fear. I think you have a great attitude about this emotion and can use it to further your practice.
Courage is not the absence of fear; it's the ability to walk through it.
fear of flying
Posted - Feb 20 2008 : 12:54:54 PM
