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hellothere
Greece
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 Posted - Feb 01 2015 : 6:26:43 PM
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Hello there, my name is Alexander and im from Greece. Mostly i dont like talking about this and even when i do,mostly with ppl i trust im not quite sure.To be precise im not quite sure anything anymore.So 2 years prior to this i was really stressed,had hormonal issues,had vis
ited a number of psychologists,psychiatrist,endocrinologists,was angry,emotionally,spirtually and psychologically unbalanced,had too much rage, was angry all the time, heavily addicted to pornography etc etc and i was looking into alternative medicine mostly nutriotional to help cope with this situation when i finally came across an artivce that mediation and smthing called binaural beats could help with sleeping problems (has some insomnia too).So did even though the first 5 mins proved to be somewhat diffivult due to my impatience.Well agter 15 min if i recall correctly i came to a point when after 2 years of enormous stressors i came to be relaxed.The moment that happened a movement occured in my head if i can recall correctly.I immediately came out of meditsion scared and terrified though the next day came to meditate again.It was night, i sat and then after some time (though it was 1 hour or 2)strange things began to happen.It started at first with some hand movements and strange symbols if i can recall correctly followed by bodily movement,followed by voices faces,visions,feminine like dances, and some martial art looking alike movement or dunno what.After that i began having strange dreams, spontaneous breathing patterns (asanas as icame to find out afterwards or dunno what) and lately some visitors if thats the right terminology or dunno what :P So its been almost a year simce then with ups and down but mostly up even though im not quite sure, truth be told generally i feel much,much better regarding all the psychological issues etc.Prior to this i had no experience whatsoever with meditation etc etc and to be totally honest i think i was semi not that religious i suposse.So i did some research even though i still have problems and tried to find ppl here in greece to somehow help me with that but asides that im still cnonfused, a lot i think.Its been almost a year it happened on february of 2014 and sometimed im scared of it,other i totally embrace it,other i semi embrace it,other im very sceptical about it.Well tbh one part of mine wants it and wants to go beyond i think and the other one want to have relationship (never had one and if it hadnt be for one paid time i could be still considered a virgin :P),a normal life in general or dunno whatIm so confused and lately ive been getting a little scared and intrigued at the same time with all that visitors,ty in advance. |
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hellothere
Greece
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Posted - Feb 01 2015 : 7:07:20 PM
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1.Both physical and psychological.
2.Both, they mostly occur during nightime and yes my sleep is affected.
3.Dont rly know.
4.Nothing rly, i just sit there and i let her do her thing. :P
5.Yes i do,in order to accommodate for that sensitivity i tend to have a heavy protein based meal after the practise or later.
6.No,asides 2 times in my life i ve never done drugs nor smoke.
7.Yes,definately i think so though im quite uncertain at this point. :P
8.Yes mostly after 2 weeks i tend to release because things begin to get rly tense and sometimes i may get a little bit scared of that. :P
9.My diet mostly consists of fruit,some vegetables,meat (mostly chicken), and peanuts though ive recently quited due to some rushes appearing in my body,could be allergy god knows what.
10.Well i used to but the last 2 months asides some time i rly dont.
11.Well i like to research and sometimes overanalyze but i rly dont know.
12.I used to.
13.Yes,none rly or some minor improvement,not quite sure.
14.Dont think so.
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jusmail
India
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Posted - Feb 02 2015 : 02:56:28 AM
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Welcome to the forum. Please read through the lessons to get a beeter idea of the way ahead.
All the best |
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Dogboy
USA
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Posted - Feb 02 2015 : 08:17:58 AM
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Hello there, Hellothere  welcome!
I agree with Jusmail, spend so time here at AYP and use the search feature to help with your experiences. That fact you are finding relief through meditation should be evidence enough to investigate further. Your skeptical monkey mind wants a say in your process, just don't let it take the wheel. Surrender and good luck! |
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