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Zanyan
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 Posted - Oct 10 2014 : 5:33:23 PM
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I come from teachers/traditions that discourage talking about practice and the fruits of practice outside of meetings with teachers, so I usually don't say much here, though I read a lot and continue to practice. I do a lot of head nodding along with people's posts.  I don't currently, and have not for some time, had a teacher in the flesh, nor do I sit with a meditation group. I had an email conversation with Victor before he died and had been planning on sitting with him and his group.  Victor.
I have many years of meditation experience, and about a year and a half of AYP experience. I came to AYP, as have many of us, because I had a "bliss" blowout of kundalini energy, and I had been in search of information to help me deal with it. AYP practices with judicious self pacing have been a true gift to me. Yogani and all posters here.
About a year ago, during Cosmic Samyama, identity began to shift to unbounded awareness. It has been a bumpy year, but practices have continued, and a smoothing out of experiences has occurred over the last couple of months (I added in an hour a day of breathing meditation in addition to one traditional 3 part AYP session per day: SPB, DM, Samyama - more than that has usually caused overload). I am today moved to post a little writing I did this morning trying to describe in words what is currently rising here, not just during practice, but throughout the days and nights. It is beautiful, surprising, and a little bit scary to the mind sometimes:
Direct felt sense of infinite open heart space. Mind consciousness merging with (in) open infinite heart space. Resounding silence, peace, compassion, love. "It" is merging "me": thoughts, feelings, sensations, emotions, desires, perceptions arise and are permeated by utter silence, peace. Sense of dissolving, merging with silent, utter stillness.
In the few months prior to this, there was a clear descending energy that seemed to be mostly "working on" (opening) head and heart space. Then, for the past few weeks, a sense of being drawn inward, inward, inward into the heart space, to the center of inner peace was arising frequently, and then for the past few days through today the sense of being merged with, dissolving, etc. as written above.
In Peace and Gratitude |
Edited by - Zanyan on Oct 10 2014 6:23:47 PM |
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Bodhi Tree
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Posted - Oct 11 2014 : 01:25:15 AM
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Yes.
Wait...one more yes.
And finally...more--please! thank you.   |
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Zanyan
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Posted - Oct 11 2014 : 6:05:25 PM
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| Thank you, Bodhi Tree. Your loving affirmation - yes - is much appreciated. |
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