My uncle passed away 7 years ago from brain cancer. He was the only one I was close to in my life. He comes up frequently in my meditations, activities we did, seeing him laying dead on the bed, etc.
Last night I had a vision of me slashing him and blood all over along with shaking him uncontrollably! I know that in meditation we are supposed to allow and not resist the thoughts that come up. But I am thoroughly ashamed of this. My uncle never did me harm so I do not think its me being angry with him for anything he did. But why is this happening?
One idea is that losing him has caused me so much pain maybe the slashing represents me trying to extenguish his memory from my mind?
The first one is that meditation can bring up unresolved internal conflict. You are brushing up the dirt of negative emotion. Yet this is just scenery. I had many of these which even now I would prefer to keep to myself
You have taken your own advice here and simply allowed the thoughts to come up without accepting or rejecting them and then back to the mantra when comfortable to do so.
The second is the discomfort you feel around the images and the feelings of guilt that arise.
Are you feeling angry because your uncle left you alone and guilty because you think you should not feel this way about someone you love ?
Are you feeling angry because your uncle left you alone and guilty because you think you should not feel this way about someone you love ?
Yes, I think you hit home with this comment. Very sad truth there...
Its grief and if you ignored the emotions at the time of your uncles death then they lie unresolved. Meditation is particularly effective at opening up these emotional stores. If you carry on meditating and allowing the images to come then after a time you will resolve it.
Look through the sadness, entertain it fully and you will discover something important about yourself and the love that abides there.
Help- Seeing Slashing the deceased?
Posted - May 22 2014 : 4:17:41 PM
