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Originally posted by parvati9

This is my kundalini experience from the past tense because the worst is over. For 3 years (2010, 2011, 2012) it was extremely uncomfortable at best and near frantic desperation at worst. Doing some fine tuning now and beginning to reap the benefits of this extraordinary experience. Had I known what was going on, it would have been more bearable. But I didn't have much of a clue. I knew very little about kundalini at the time.

Some successful strategies employed to cope with the spontaneous kundalini activation:

In the beginning, what probably helped me the most is those bi-metal bracelets, many of them made in India, or the magnetic type, readily available in the USA. Both types are very helpful in leveling out the energy surges and thus provide some temporary relief. For months I wore them day and night, only removing them to shower.

Personally I found crystals useful as well, but they aren't as easy to use as the bracelets and require experience and knowledge to employ effectively for this purpose. Nevertheless, they do work imo. Actually I was trying just about everything to see what would produce positive results.

Whereas I ordinarily practice Tai Chi and the result is enormously uplifting, that had to be self-paced and reduced. Most other types of exercise I found generally helpful in giving brief periods of respite. And sometimes Tai Chi helped. But other times it sent my energy through the roof. Calm and serenity is what I was aiming for, less energy not more. And I wanted no intensity in any part of my life. Intensity is what I wanted to get away from.

A comment here regarding family obligations. After much sifting and sorting from my memory trying to figure out how this kundalini activation got started, I realized that taking care of my father helped immensely to calm down the energy surges. It helped so much that I didn't have a problem at all. I took care of my father from 1996-2008. And from what I can ascertain the k activation began in 2000. It gradually kicked into high gear 4 years ago in January 2010 and until that time had been barely noticeable. But nothing about it seemed gradual once it really revved up.

During the intense activation phase, I was intuitively guided to try a heavier diet, higher in protein than my normal intake. Even though I am vata, and beans are not recommended for vata, I found that beans helped to promote a sense of well being, and I was eating more of them. Also eggs. And fish. I actually had to reduce my cheese consumption and for short periods like during the summer, gave it up entirely. I am mostly vegetarian, but found that I needed the fish. Any kind of protein I could get into my body seemed to help me feel better. Protein foods are generally heavier foods and that was what I required.

Lately as the kundalini activation began to ramp down, I have been consuming less protein, and have increased my intake of fresh juices which I juice myself. However, I notice that the juice (much lighter than most protein rich foods) usually increases my energy. Something I wouldn't have wanted to do until recently.

After being a year into this kundalini awakening, I was getting the idea that it really might just BE a kundalini thing (I didn't know for sure). I couldn't find any useful information online. What I did find was contradictory and didn't resonate. So I was basically on my own out in the middle of nowhere and I was very confused and lost. Needless to say I was relying on trial and error. After a lot of experimenting I discovered that going with the weird energy and being present with it was really all I could do. Fighting it or any kind of struggle whatsoever made it worse, sometimes so much worse that I cried for hours, or felt like my life was hopeless.

This is very important....when I learned to cooperate and work with the energy, it was so much easier. I would strongly recommend to do whatever possible to work with it. But at the same time, not to feed the energy or drive it more crazy than it already is. It takes some time to figure this out. Try to be patient with the process as it works itself out. You may need to do whatever you can to assist the process to stabilize, even out and level off. Most of the time, your goal will probably be to reduce rather than increase the spiritual component of the energy. I realize this may be counter-intuitive but it makes sense. It is our spiritual endeavors that drive the kundalini. So reducing and self-pacing anything with a spiritual component to it, may help limit and contain the k energy fluctuations and symptoms.

That was the hardest part for me. I somehow sensed that I had to back off from my spiritual endeavors, which for me, were rather obsessive. I almost completely stopped reading spiritual materials, which had become quite the indulgence. It was an indulgence I could no longer afford, at least not in the fever pitch kundalini stage. I even reduced the time I spent listening to spiritual music, which had always calmed and soothed me. In fact a lot of what I was doing was simply the opposite of what I normally did.

If I had known what was happening to me, I would have been able to take a more informed approach. As it was, I turned to the process itself for guidance, which was just as well. The process itself became my teacher and I have learned to respect her. It's virtually impossible to go through this experience without gaining some respect for the energy that has been driving you near crazy and from time to time, providing some bliss and ecstasy. It is referred to in these forums as the ecstatic conductivity.

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Originally posted by sunyata

Hi digofarias,
It's unbelievable that we are going through more or less the same experiences. Few months back, I was going through the same experience. If I read/listened anything spiritual, I would feel movement on the right side of my back but not the spine. I wonder if this is kundalini. My body would jerk. But, I did not want to stop meditating. So, what I did was- I would focus my attention on it when it started. If it went away or didn't scare me I would go on with the meditation. If it felt uncomfortable and felt like I was pushing it, I would call it quits for the day.
I never timed myself, but I didn't go over 20 minutes either. It could be 3 minutes, 7 minutes whatever was comfortable. I would listen to the inner guru. I don't have that experience anymore. I can easily do the morning meditation for 20 minutes. Now I'm working on the evening meditation. Hope this helps. Just my 2 cents, I'm still a rookie at this.

Love
Sunyata

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The danger, as I saw it, was not so much in the physical and emotional upheaval, but rather in one's tendency to cling to self deception and the maintenance of ego defenses

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Originally posted by parvati9

Hi KundaliniTherapist,

This is my belief and I would like to know what you believe.

Evil (suffering) is like infected software that infiltrates our consciousness and runs (ruins) our lives. K is radically transforming our lives, and re-establishing our spiritual identity, by ushering us into a deeper understanding of ourselves. Through it we are switched back on and DNA reactivated into our pure essence and true consciousness.

We are capable of facilitating our withdrawal from the confusion, evil, or suffering. From false association with the synthetic life of superficial materialism.

On all levels - from the micro to the macro - k purges us of toxic substances, toxic thinking, and virus infested software. It makes us aware of malfunctioning programs and running defective sub routines - at the spiritual, mental, emotional, physical, social/cultural and cellular levels.

If we allow it, we see how we have become shallow, hypnotized, and manipulated by inferior code/ideology both internally through ego and externally through influence from a materialistic culture.

K is the spirit of truth, holy spirit or connectivity with the divine. It has an energy frequency or vibration. When this frequency saturates our being on every level, we clearly see ourselves as powerful manifestations of the divine light.

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Originally posted by Goodway
If you don't mind me saying something, I'd just like to interject that power is one of less interesting dimensions of having kundalini awakened. Sure, it is nice to feel like a you're hooked into an electric socket, vibrating calmly; it's reassuring you know?

However, it is much more fun when you become the person from whom you feel alienated, when you have to endure this process. Stay in contact with the person that you like in you.

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Originally posted by parvati9

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Originally posted by Goodway
If you don't mind me saying something, I'd just like to interject that power is one of less interesting dimensions of having kundalini awakened. Sure, it is nice to feel like a you're hooked into an electric socket, vibrating calmly; it's reassuring you know?

However, it is much more fun when you become the person from whom you feel alienated, when you have to endure this process. Stay in contact with the person that you like in you.

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Thanks Goodway. Your comment is appreciated. A revision of that statement was in progress while you were posting. I agree with staying in contact with the person that you like in you. Power is the nature of it though. When people are in the midst of a spontaneous awakening, and don't know what is happening to them, they can feel overwhelmed and at the mercy of this powerful energy. That energy needs to be dealt with in a positive way and preceived as a great opportunity - is what I was trying to say. I hope the revised version is better, perhaps you would care to give your opinion on that?

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Originally posted by parvati9

KundaliniTherapist nailed it when she said our suffering arises from clinging to ego or "who we think we are".

When the spontaneous k activation became very intense these last few years, I had absolutely no idea what was going on. At first I thought I was sick but it didn't just go away after a few weeks or months. And there were aspects to it that weren't at all like being ill, such as my extremely high energy. It seemed that I "wasn't myself" and my body was behaving very strangely. I no longer felt in control of my life, thoughts, feelings or physical sensations.

What I wanted, and I wanted it very badly, was for my life to return to the way it was before all this weirdness started. The kundalini energy was way too intense and I found it impossible to be my usual calm self. I was a tiny boat being tossed about in a big sea and a horrible storm.

Now since I have this tendency to analyze everything, I had to find out what was going on. In retrospect, I have to know why I didn't feel in control of my life. From reading how others are affected by spontaneous k activation, it appears to be quite common to feel one is losing control of one's life. So why is this?

In my opinion, it is because we are clinging to who we think we are. And who we are is changing dramatically every day as Shakti obsessively cleans house. Who you think you are is what anchors your life. When 'who you think you are' is changing every day - there isn't a solid anchor anymore. Shakti was driving my idea of 'who I think I am' deeper and deeper. So I had to continually release the more superficial concepts of my self identity. And this reorganization of my identity was more or less a daily routine.

It was precisely my willingness to be flexible that enabled me to feel in control of my life again. But I nearly had to be forced into doing this, as it was about the last thing I tried.

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Originally posted by parvati9

Shakti showed me how my inconsistent faith in the divine was directly related to immune deficiency. When I got sick it was largely because I allowed myself to be unnecessarily vulnerable and this weakened my immune system. I wasn't countering toxic exposure with a faith that could overcome.

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