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emc
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 Posted - May 16 2010 : 3:38:15 PM
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An official confession from a personal mind identity.
I know I SHOULD:
- relax
sorry, there's tension here
- just be
I am... existing as a tension right now *faking advaita*
- just notice sensations
sorry, thoughts are more interesting
- see how I give thoughts 5 star attention
or... NOT! I indulge instead
- go for a walk every day
mm... nope... not happening
- give
oh no... I still need so much for myself
- enjoy nature - it's so beautiful in the spring
eh... I just see this grey veil covering all of it cause it's not ALIVE yet
- just make a tiny effort - to choose to be aware as often as possible
bah, too tired - always! (and by the way it's probably the mind watching the mind anyway)
- not make any effort at all, let go and let God
Uhu, yes but nothing relevant is happening then, and by the way there's always striving for enlightenment here... a lot of effort is put into that!
- see that paradoxes are helpful - the divine design
... just hate them!
- express whatever feeling that comes, even hate
no, suppressing is standard here, let's cover it up!
- not listen to all spiritual advice, it's so confusing
oh - sad to tell you, I still listen and try to comply, it's so sad, isn't it?
- take a break from it all
really sorry, but it's a must now - ya know, da fire in da heart?
- self-pace the bhakti
wait, you just said I should not listen to spiritual advice?
- know by now that suppressed emotions create tensions
yep, perfectly clear here in theory, not in practice
- do something about it!
mm... *shaking the head* too much hard work going through da sh*t
- breath.. BREATH!!!
Sorry, having breath suspensions here. Hurts to push breath through it.
- be consistent in your practices
I'm pretty consistent, but I'm obviously not doing the practices right
- just be cool with it, it might be the dark night of the soul ya' know?
the hell it is... it's a natural, common mind state
- keep cultivating stillness
must confess - not so sure it's happening
- trust
trust what? It's all up to me! It takes some effort!
- trust it's not up to you on any level - it's grace
I don't trust that
- do The Work on your stressful thoughts!
that thought stresses me out! I should NOT do The Work at the moment!
- not use meditation as an escape from the normal world
that's what I want to do, so I do just that, thank you for your opinion!
- try just not minding your mind
you mean, go into being? Then my body does funny things
- not let your body do funny things that might disturb others
see? I told ya!
- let your body do funny things - it's divine and beautiful
no, I should not, or people will reject me
- investigate your fear of rejection - get to know thyself! All must be seen on this journey
No, I'd rather suppress it and create more tension
- know that this too shall pass
yes, it might actually get worse! And there's nothing that says liberation will happen in this lifetime
- sing, dance, have some fun
I can dance, just don't ask me to agree it's fun - it's not Real yet
- do exactly what you do, feel what you feel - there's nothing wrong!
Yes, true. So we can leave it then, at this status quo. Right?
- Allow!
Beautiful. I just have this longing for liberation... and there we go again... didn't that crave some sort of active choice and effort...????
- Smile!
 Mmm, that's the weirdest thing of it all, I must confess. Must be that body doing funny things, can't help it...
Please note: This is posted in the forum for poetry and is to be regarded as such. The author will not engage in any discussion about the poem or its content. |
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Sparkle
Ireland
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Posted - May 16 2010 : 4:15:33 PM
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| Thanks emc, really enjoyed the nowness of it |
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emc
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Posted - May 17 2010 : 01:45:31 AM
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| Thanks Louis! |
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