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stevenbhow
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 Posted - Nov 17 2008 : 02:34:01 AM
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Kundalini Confusion: A Haibun by Steve Howard
I have no idea what to expect. Some Indian music plays in the background, a sitar, warbly singing, Mantras maybe. We sit in a circle on a large white couch. The Deeksha Givers ask us to close our eyes and relax or meditate. I’m in half lotus slowly counting my breath. I feel hands on top of my head. And then…..
Wild blue ropes of energy shoot from my hands and the top of my head. Waves of heat cause me to mildly convulse. Suddenly, involuntary deep breathing pulls the energy up my spine. The snake uncoils into spectacular visions; The Buddha’s contented face in gold, a rainbow pulsing from my solar plexus; the “I” melts into the indescribable. Calmness descends. Bathing in the knowing, I smile.
breath deep this holy gift
electric Dharma fires through blocks
the path has opened
Seven months later and I’m still unclean. Anger Karma rages across the little groove I occupy in the Field. My spontaneous Kundalini Awakening has been full of contradictions. If this is step one where should my feet fall for step two? Am I supposed to sit on the edge of the Ganges chanting Mantras? Hard to do seeing as I live in Japan. Life goes on in this modern world. I have no time to chase down a Guru. I’m left wondering, “What now?”
Life. Divine Mirth.
Not laughing at it?
Then you don’t get the punch line.
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Christi
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Posted - Nov 17 2008 : 03:26:43 AM
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Hi Steven and welcome to the forum,
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Seven months later and I’m still unclean. Anger Karma rages across the little groove I occupy in the Field. My spontaneous Kundalini Awakening has been full of contradictions. If this is step one where should my feet fall for step two? Am I supposed to sit on the edge of the Ganges chanting Mantras? Hard to do seeing as I live in Japan. Life goes on in this modern world. I have no time to chase down a Guru. I’m left wondering, “What now?”
It sounds like you were really blessed by the diksha givers! I have been blessed many times in similar ways. Kundalini awakening though, is just the beginning of the story... now there is a lot of work for you to do.
If you want to do the work the best place to start is here:
http://www.aypsite.org/10.html
Just follow the lessons through one at a time.
If you have any questions you can ask them here and someone will answer.
Christi
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Suryakant
USA
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Posted - Nov 18 2008 : 08:37:04 AM
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Originally posted by stevenbhow
Am I supposed to sit on the edge of the Ganges chanting Mantras?
Yes. Sit on the edge of the flowing stream of samsara and hear the transient sounds of samskaras and vasanas breaking off and dissolving and washing away. The Ganges is everywhere and nowhere. The Mantras fade into Silence. Ram |
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stevenbhow
Japan
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Posted - Nov 18 2008 : 09:03:27 AM
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Hi Christi and Suryakant,
Thanks for the comments and advice. My Kundalini Awakening has made a huge impact on my writing as well.
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