I cry as if in defeat though the joy is in the surrendering heart i truly wish for the tears flow to stain the soul with a permanent colour of love for you oh lord i ask for divinity that lives within forgive my doubt for it has formed my faith did i wander so many times in barren lands and paths where the signs where mistaken for obstructions now the blessings have begun but never a palace of riches on the journey outward only gifts given in return for the surrender to a truth that cannot be thought but felt seen in light so bright that blindness to all else is the requirment for its view to be known