My body/mind has been dissolving at night while awareness remains. I realize that awareness has always been. Several times a day I ask myself what's the simplest thing, and it goes back to awareness. But my mind keeps on going and going and is really making this into NOT the simplest thing. I've achieved something in my mind which is really quite silly.
Yes, Lalow, mostly in early morning and at night, or during any spiritual activity with others. Ive described it as an ongoing acid trip, like all my conceptions (pretenses and distinctions, identities) are melting into acid.
Every distinction seems trivial. Its (opening) an intimate process for each of us, and its okay. My inclination is to let it rain. The result is ultimately not up to us. All we can do is our best!
PS: Not meditating much lately has helped me a bit.