I am trying to follow celibate lifestyle but after few days sexual thoughts start enveloping my mind and i find myself in helpless situation which results in relapsing(masturbation). I start gain with great determination but again the same thing.
I feel like being caught in a loop. i sit for meditation in the morning and evening, do pranayama but still i can't get over those thoughts.
Hi Orahmax, the best that I can advise is not to push yourself too much in any direction, because you can create forces in yourself that will push you back. Just allow yourself to gently go in that direction if that is in line with your inner self. What you want to achieve takes some time, so be patient and don't take it as a bad thing if you do not get it in a few months. Be open and listen inside to be sure that your motives come from the right place. Sometimes what we want and what we need are two different things. Be sure to look upon your needs. Also, try not to make a big thing of it, that can also create a lot of unnecessary tension.