In my journey up till now I've been many different personas at different times... Even in spirituality I was a christian, an occultist, a yogi, an Aypyer and a sufi and an advaitan... Now really I do not dare say I am this or that anymore or even attach myself to one way or practice... Bayazid Al Bastami said once: I've been doing rememberance since 40 years... When I stopped I realized that my rememberance was my veil."