The only place you can find ]God is in your heart he is deep inside you, close you eyes for minute take deep breaths, clear your mind and once your done everything should be alot clearer. If u want go to your local priest he should be able to advise you, when I was was feeling lost, I got a dream from the Angel Gabriel and spoke to me, I know it sounds nuts, but when I woke up it felt like a huge wieght has been lifted off my chest. To know more about who we are how you can find the God Please see this http://pathofenlightenment.org/why-are-we-here/