Sorry guys, but right now I can't do it. It doesn't seem right. Thanks for all of your consideration.
You are right Scott.. you have to do things that seem right at the current point in life. You do have a taste of how things are on this path.. you are lucky to have experienced it... so when you are ready... things will fall in place.. they always do.. and then it will feel right. Don't worry.. do what you have to do right now and come back any time.. like David had said once.. Welcome to the Hotel AYP.. you can check out any time you like.. but you can never leave. Wish you all the best my dear.