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T64 - Shame and Guilt about Sex (Audio)
May 8, 2009
It is recommended you read from the beginning of this tantra yoga archive,
as previous lessons are prerequisite to this one. The first lesson is, "What
is tantra yoga?"
Q: I am
ashamed of the sexual lifestyle I find myself in, and of the excesses I am
prone to engage in. Can tantra methods bring me more in balance and help me
get over the shame and guilt I suffer.
A: Yes, tantra methods can
help bring balance and reduce self-judgment about sex, especially when
combined with a broader view encompassing our overall spiritual development.
Sex is one part of the whole of our life. By addressing the whole, we will
bring light into every part.
The first step to resolving a personal
difficulty is the recognition of it, which you are doing now. From there, we
can move beyond self-condemnation to dissolve the underlying cause that is
producing our shame and guilt. Sometimes it will be in our best interest
favor an intention to change our conduct. Other
times, it will be in our best interest
intention to accept who we are, forgive ourselves for the self-judgment we
have imposed on ourselves, and move on. If we have harmed others along the
way, we can find ways to make amends and move on from there. Where there is
the will, there is a way.
Sexual lifestyle is not an obstacle to
spiritual development. The underlying principles of preservation and
cultivation of sexual energy can be applied within any lifestyle or sexual
behavior. This is what the AYP tantra lessons are about, looking at it from
many angles, and suggesting ways to apply the underlying principles in each
case. So, whatever sexual excesses we may be experiencing, developing a good
understanding of the principles of tantra can help bring balance into our
sex life, no matter what it has been before. But if we want a lasting
solution, we must look beyond the application of tantric sexual principles
Nothing can change the fact that ultimately we are not our
thoughts and emotions, or even our actions. We are the pure consciousness
behind all that. What are deeply held shame and guilt but an attachment to a
perception? It is identification of our awareness with our thoughts,
feelings, body, and events that have occurred in our life. This is why we
meditate daily, to cultivate pure consciousness, that abiding inner silence
-- the witness. Then, as we observe all that is going on in our life (inside
and outside), we can allow it and let it go. When we do, the compulsive
conduct and self-judgment will begin to relax. That is how it is done. It
takes some time, so it is suggested to develop a habit of daily meditation
(see Lesson 13), and see what gradual changes
in self-awareness and conduct occur over months and years. You may be
surprised how quickly your point of view can
change with just a little inner silence coming up.
including shame and guilt, can be converted with the methods of bhakti. You
are already doing this by asking your question. One sincere cry for help is
worth more than lifetimes of self-condemnation. It
is a major shift, and you are encouraged to keep going. When help comes
in the form of new opportunities created by your own sincere desire,
be prepared to take action in the direction being shown if it resonates with
you. It is one thing to cry for help. It is another thing to act when a
promising door opens. We are each responsible for our own progress in life.
No one can do
it for us for long if we are not
willing to do for ourselves. For more on
converting negative emotions to a higher purpose, see
Under certain circumstances, emotional baggage and
compulsive conduct can be released in the mind by
systematic application of the methods of self-inquiry. See
Lesson 321 and the ones that follow for suggestions
on how to apply the mind in ways that can lead to less self-judgment and a
greater sense of freedom.
If there is a stubborn addiction that is
causing harm to us and others, then additional help from a 12 step program
can be very good. The 12 step support program is a systematic way to step
out of a destructive attachment by surrendering to a "higher power," which
is also our inner silence.
There are a variety of approaches we can
use to overcome shame and guilt in our life. It is recommended to take a
multi-pronged approach according to your inclinations. If you take actions
along several lines
that resonate with you, the
results will be there, and the whole will be greater than the sum of the
Above all, cultivate an intent to be kind to yourself and to
those who may have been affected adversely by your conduct. Our respect for
others begins with developing respect for ourselves. What you seek you will
find. You are obviously longing for a fuller life. Act on that longing, and
all will be well. Good things are happening.
The guru is in you.
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